My happy day =)

Woohooo...today SATURDAY 29.10.2011....fun at MC'D.
we have celebrate b'day party on MC'D..for ang li hern..
and i was playing game with them....damn..so fun..
but now..i was alone n playing cp in MC'D...zzzZZZ
but i still have on it...
The person that i hate didn't come...XD
We have____
1.dayang
2.faizah
3.amira
4.tracey=that was me =)
5.kristine lee
6.jadrian
7.frederick
8.micheal
9.Ariff
10.Assandra..
And many more....
Today was an memorable too xD...
I hope next time still gt ppl that celebrate B'day at MC'D..and i can play CP..hahahahaha

It Not A Game.....

For me....LOVE not a game for everyone...
What mean love??? Everyone dunno that true reason....Sometimes...The love hurt people..
LOVE.....falling in love with each other...Have a real feeling with each other..Not PLAYING..
This love..Was a true love...but when u falling in love but didn't have any feeling..PLEASE don't try to tell that ppl that u falling..CAUSE it migt be hurt she/he....
Please don't treat love as a game..Even the word of love is just a word..but...it just had a 1mean..
that is true of ur feeling...Now..we just a child..we just 12..still have a long way to walk..
Still have a lot of thing to do...We still have to study hard..When we truly freedom..
We can start and find our lover..Just wait..it not will take a longer time...Don't keep think that nobody love you..Everyone have a person that love she/he so much...
Love not game...love not a thing for u to play because boring..
I write this diary..just because of my best friend "KRISTINE LEE"..
she had play by a boy...The boy had  a TRIANGLE love..."三角恋"
As you know..i hate the boy that like this..he had falling in love with two girl..
As i know...he was playing around with the girl....
Boy...girl not for play..girl have a feeling too...in this world..girl is the most will tears...
but some of them..did tears out..them just tears it in them heart...
Boy...you will never know how much is the pain...
Maybe some of them..didn't tears.didn't hide it at them heart..They just go for the suicide way...
But for me...i choose to be strong...don't try to trust any love again...
LOVE= it have make me tears..it have make me pain...
I LOVE SINGLE....

........Dunno Wat Tittle..............

朋友对我来说是什么意思。。。

我的生活少了朋友会变得好安静。。。所以，朋友对我很重要。。

我不能少了它。。。。
朋友，好朋友。。没什么差别。。我要的只是真心朋友。。我不要求那么多。。
就算我的朋友只有44% 我都满足了。。
朋友是我的生命。。。可是，他们是怎么想的呢？？？
他们。。每次都来伤害我。。。我忍了。。。
他们。。让我流泪了。。。
他们。。让我割手了。。。
我还是把他们当朋友看待。。因为，当我失去一个朋友时，比他们给我的伤害更痛。。
所以。。一切我都忍了。。
在学校所发生的事情。。在家里的家人，完全都不知道。。因为，我根本没说啊。。
我好想找一个可以安静的把我心理所以有的话呐喊出来。。
但。。。没有一个。。因为，我是一个如此丑恶的人。。没人会留下来陪我。。
就连身边的家人都没理过我。。。他们爱的只是。。我姐姐。。
哇。。姐姐是如此的美。。我比不过他。。走在街上，人们以为我和姐姐是朋友，而不是姐妹。。有时，我常想。。我会不会是一个从孤儿院拿来得女儿。。啊！！我想太多了。。
可是，我和姐姐的脸完全不一样。。她是如此的完美。。。我羡慕了姐姐。。抱歉~
心理的痛苦，没有人知道。。 因为，我把它收的好好的。。。。
对别人来说。。我应该是个很坚强的女生。。对我来说，我是那么的弱，胆小，不要脸。。。这种的人吧。。我曾想过。。。结束这个生活。。可是，因为莫种原因。。
我选择。。努力的活下去。。手上的疤痕。。我永远不会忘记。。。

对.................

对。。。如你说的。。我们分手了。。

我们的感情结束了。。没有了。。消失了。。

安静的世界，回来了。。

在 FB里。。你经常来信息我，问我：“你好吗？？”

对。。我很好，少了你的存在，我很好，没变。。

可是，是真的吗？？ 我把所有的痛，都埋在心理。。

你看到吗？？？你知道吗？？我不认为。。

我们分手了，我们也不可能当朋友了。。就算是个普通朋友，也没希望。。

我好笨，明知道你不是我的。。却还天天偷看你的 FB个人主页。。。

看看你最近都 POST什么。。我真的好白痴。。

有时候。。在脑时，当寂寞的海里，都是你的影子。。

眼里充满泪水，好想把它暂停。。。但，我做不到。。泪水流了下来。。

我想你，想的快疯了。。脑海里都是你。。难道说，我还爱你吗？？？ 不可能！！！

经常对自己说。。没关系，回过去的。。把它当梦看待。。但，我不会。。。

他，是我最爱的男生。。也是，我伤的最深的男生。。

不管我怎么弥补，也不可能会被原谅。。

可是，他却每次都原谅我这女生。。当他原谅我的时候，我又流泪了。。

可是，我却一次一次的伤害他。。。现在的我，变了。。

俊....你看到了吗？？ 我改变了，我比以前不一样了。。我不再对你微笑了。。

因为我知道，当我对你微笑的时候，你会认为我没放弃你，我还爱你，我还思念你。。所以，现在的我，对你好冷淡。。

因为，这个就是原本的我。。我不需要假装。。对彼此都没有好处。。

我知道，你的一切微笑都是装的。。所以,不要下去了。。那会让我很难过。。

我现在要得，并不是你的微笑或什么，我要的是你 幸福.......你明白吗？？？

你天天都对我假装微笑，难道。。你不会觉得腻吗？？？不会感到难过吗？？

既然你不会感到难过。。我会啊！！！虽然现在的我没有资格理会你。。但....我不喜欢你现在的微笑。。

不要嫌我烦。。。我知道我好讨厌。。但，我只希望你 幸福...难道很难吗？？？

你问我。。。我们还能在一起吗？？？我的回答是： 不可能........

原因是因为。。我一定会在让你受到伤害。。我一定会在让你流泪。。
所以。。。。我爱上了寂寞的世界。。。
因为，寂寞比受到伤害好吧。。。。=)

I'M JUST WANNA BE LIKE SKYSCRAPER

Pain...痛苦会消失吗？？？？？

Ya...I finally know what is pain...The pain that from the bottom of my heart..
Is could because of him...Him have teach me about what is "PAIN"
Am i still loving him??? not..i should let him go and forget about him..
Ok...I know the pain that i break with you.
By the way..are u just think u the one just pain?!
Sorry..I pain too~...Even is my decision..
Sometimes..i keep think about the suicide way...Ya,i suicide before..
But..this time..i didn't feel to make all the things..
So..i not choose suicide,i choose to cut my hand..
ya...is was so many scar on my hand,AS YOU SEE..
Hmm..my friend asking me about my scar..it is pain..
But i just can say..it was not pain at all..But..The most pain,was inside my heart...I keep saying to myself.."THIS PAIN WILL DISAPPEAR"
But..It Is True??? I still Can Feel It...
Should i choose the silent for my world..Not..i choose to happy...
But..i still faking it..
Ya...Fake Smile,Fake Laugh,Fake Joke..All was a fake...
你放弃了我。。。我终于自由了。。
不过，少了你的关怀，真的有点不自在。。
也许，我爱上了一不该爱上的人。。
朋友问我：“为什么你一直笑”。。
我能回答的只有：“因为，我很开心啊”
这就是我的风格。。请不要踏入我的世界来改变它。。
因为，我会恨你。。
我。。。我真的爱上了一个不该爱上的人吗？??
我现在能做的只是一个很普通的“微笑”
就算想流泪。。我也坚持的微笑，那是你教我的。。你还记得吗？？？
以前的你，每次都微笑。。
可是，现在的你却是如此的冷淡。。
你不是我认识的人了。。
我们还是朋友吗？？这句话，是你经常问我的。。
我的答案是：“我们不再是朋友了，我们是最收悉的陌生人”
一样的道理。。你放弃了我，我放弃了你。。
就算以后再见到你，我也会当做不认识你。。
因为你是，我爱的最深的男生，也是我伤到最深的男生。。
但，请你记住了。。。我和你都受到伤害了。。
所以，流泪的不只有你。。我也流泪了。。
虽然，大家告诉我。。你让感动的话，都是假的。。
但。。我还是相信了。。我好笨。。
因为。。就只有一个原因
“我爱上你这个骗子了”

"GRADUATION" Is Coming Soon....

As you know...Our School GRADUATION time is coming soon..

That mean...I gonna leave this school on this years..

Yupp..I'm primary6..That IS..On 2012 i gonna be Form1...

When i leave this primary school..some of my friends had gone to other place..

As you see...some of them go to k.k~

How about me??? I'm gonna continued my school In "SMK LABUAN"

By the way..My Best friends.."KRISTINE LEE"...she had go to the school that same with me...

Sometimes...i gonna miss my friends..that in the far away..

Our GRADUATION DAYS is in 04.11.2011...

Ya..Is coming soon,right??

The day...The time that i with my friends..Have become less....

I prefect sure..when is graduation day...i gonna tears..*LOUDLY 

Today...MONDAY=24.10.2011...

We have gathering on school hall...We practice to sing the graduation song..

The song was so touched...I thinks i gotta tears...

Ok....let say something else....

Ya...is was so surprised....The girl that should be mine ENEMY =X...had change to my best friends =)

I'm truly happy for friends with her again =)

Ok....Change Change Change TOPIC...

Yuppp ^^...we have celebrate our classmate BIRTHDAY in next SATURDAY=29.10.2011

We Will go for there..In MC'D....Yummmy~!! I can eat BURGER again =D

As you see..i'll become happy again..

There no need worry so much to me...

The time and the day..past so fast...

I come to this island "LABUAN" on year 2007...

That times..i just primary2..still was an ugly girl..hahaha

Ya..i had growing up now...That was so many my memories on CHI WEN PRIMARY SCHOOL =(LABUAN)

Now...has year 2011..I'm primary6..

This is my time to leave this primary school..='(

Is was a sadness day for me...

Think about it now..was making me tears..oppS!! not tears..should be cry loudly..I need an shoulder..

Who can lend it to me??...='(

I lived in LABUAN for 5 year...Many of my memories in here..

But..hearing my mummy say..When i was Form5...I gonna leave this island..back my hometown,on K.K>>(KOTA KINABALU)..

Can i no need leave??? I can decide it...Is up to my mummy...

 All of my family member,Support we back-ing to K.K..

friends..missing you all ='(

I had lot fun in this island...(LABUAN)

I had forgot my topic...PAISEH..=D

okkkk..rewind rewind rewind....YEs...my topic= GRADUATION DAYS is coming soon..

Friends...if i had cry in the graduation days...don't laugh ya xD.....

This Was My New Dairy

05102011

Today..Was an memorable day..

Today..When school time end...we go to Ujiana Kewangan..

We eat so fun...on the day..gt  me, jessica, jessie ,Winie ,and the other..

They dunno wat..winie call we see sonething..we non-stop laugh..

That was too funny...i laugh until my stomachache ..XDD

When we on the way going back school for practice..

i saw..the principal...Then i shout to them "校长啊"!!!

nasib....i think the principal didn't saw we...hope it so...XDDD

But today..was a unforgotten day to me...and the feeling when saw principal..i keep remember it XDD

 let just stop here....

=just wrote an short letter=

My Feel...........♥

Today 3102011 (MONDAY) i feeling so bored in class..

I'm borrow my friends *****...I just cut in my hand with a simply mood..

So what...My hand have 10 scar..But can i still remember the pain..Ya..i still..

I still remember the word that u post on your Facebook Status..

But i will keep endure it until you let me go from your world..

Today...When my friend saw my hand...Them just keep asking about...why i do that on my own hand..

Friend...Sorry that i pretend i was happy in front of you all again..

But today..one of my friends had saw my sadness and my pain..She keep comfort me..

I'm very Thanks to her..And thanks for lend me your shoulder ..It was so warm..Thank You again..

He Facebook status had make me sadness..How about me, i still loving him..

So..i choose to endure it...Friend don't so worry about me..

I'm a girl that not worth you to care too much...

But, friend..when i was pretend that i happy..Can you please also pretend that you don't know that i was in a sadness mood...That was a good idea to me ^^...

Sometimes..i love to alone.

Sometimes..i love my side have my best friend caring me..

Sometimes..i hope u can lend me a shoulder for me to tears..

But sometimes i hope u all can let me alone..let me cry with 1person...

I don't want you all see my sadness face...

Friend..I'll Be Ok...

I'm still brave...

I'm still smile to you..even is a fake smile..But maybe in that fake smile still have my truly happiness , smile for you all my friend..

The boy that i love..Seem as friend to me..

A friend that really care of they own other side.

Boy...Did You Hear That..

My Heart Was Always Saying That

"I LOVE YOU"....

I'm really hope that you can hear..

But....did you really hear that..Seem Not..Right??

Friend....I Will Cheer Up..

And I'll Be Ok Too....

=This Was My Today Story=

=Enjoy It=

I KNOW...

Girl...I know you are pretty..

I know you are so beautiful..But how come your heart so black..

Did you always treat the person love you like that..

When you was boring,you just simply accept the boy that wanna couple with you..

But you just make them do as your toys..

You throw them at tomorrow..

What if them is really LOVE you..

But you just throw it with a bad heart!

Please Treasure The Person That Love You With A True Heart

Please Don't Make Them As Your Toys

When They Have Gone,You Will Feel Regret.

LOVE Was Not Toys That You Can Simply Play.

Did you really know the meaning of LOVE.

You May Hurt A Person.

Please Appreciate It..

That My Word To You..

=Stop Here=

It Me.........♥

Still remember the girl that so naught when she still younger..

Still remember the girl that like-ing eat sweet when she still younger..

Still remember the girl that keep making her parent smile when she still younger..

Still remember the girl that keep picking her mother flower and give it to her mother when she still younger..Still remember that girl that when she saw her sister cry she also follow cry when she still younger..A girl that always make her parent smile and care about her sister feel..

Now..Why that little girl change to big girl..She have change a lot..

She know how to hate a person,She know how to angry her parent that love she much when she still a little girl on this world..She know how to say a bad word,She know how to fight,She know how to slap a people that she don't like,She know how to make her parent feel disappoint to her,She know how to make her parent from happy to angry from angry to sadness..This is what she had done when she growing up...A girl that naught but always making people feel funny have disappear,A girl that always begged her mom to buy sweet to her have disappear,A girl that always making her parent smile have disappear,A girl that like to pick her mother flower and give to her mother as present have disappear,A girl that saw her sister cry and follow to cry also have disappear,A girl that always make her family smile,laugh,funny have disappear..

Did i'm really have make them disappoint to me..Have i really done wrong..

Did i really change a lot as you say.Where is the girl that kind when she was still a little girl.

Where is that girl that always fun...She have disappear..

Why she had change a lot..Why she keep keep keep change her character..

Because of she friend..She have hurt a lot by her own friend..

She have been hate and keep saying her are bad girl by 3years..

But,what her just do..she didn't care it so much.She just endure it..She keep believe herself that she have a lot of friend.She keep saying to herself that nobody hate her..She have keep this all thing on her heart by 3years..She always fake a smile to her friend,She always forgive the girl that always hurt her,She always give the girl chance.But,what she have got..She just got a pain..a pain that been in her heart 3years..This year [2011] she can't endure anymore..She started to change,She Stared to a bad girl..But,everyone had just knew that truth on that Friday [30.09.2011]..Everyone knew that she not a bad girl n stopped to hate her again..This girl have been freedom by the people that hate her..

But why she still endure the pain..Why she still pain on her heart..Because she can't endure all the pain that from her heart..She still keep fake a smile to her friend..But,did her friend really know that,her smile is fake..NO...none of people know that her smile is fake..Cause she have been pretend by 3years,she have habit it..She change to brave now..She not happy at all..She was been pain by a girl..A girl that was her best friend before..Did she really hate that girl...Ya,she become hate that girl from little to more..Before,she keep forgive and gave a change to the girl,but did the girl treasure it..No,she didn't treasure at all.Opposite,she had take away all her best friend from her life...

That girl have been pain by that girl was ME..

Did everyone really know the pain that from me..

I'm endure the pain for 3years,did u know that??

How come you always treat me as your toys..when you think that i was boring ,you just throw me away..But,what you have tell my friend..You tell them that was me don't want friend you first..

How come you treat me like this..

And i just can say for you,

Thank you for treat me like this,Thank you for treat me as your toys,And i have learn one things from you,that was not easily,simply to forgive and give a chance to a person that hurt you before..

You have make me change a lot..

Now..i just hope i can turn to the little girl that kind before..

But..did i really can change back...I don't think so...

Or i choose to be the girl just like now...

What the thing that i really appreciate now...That was my 1.Family 2.My Friend..

And for my family..i will always appreciate it until i leave this world..

And for my friend...i will always remember them until i leave this world..

My Story Stop Here..

Next Time,When You Was Bored,Try To Visit Again..

I Will Update Other Story..

My Story...

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