Pain...痛苦会消失吗？？？？？

Ya...I finally know what is pain...The pain that from the bottom of my heart..
Is could because of him...Him have teach me about what is "PAIN"
Am i still loving him??? not..i should let him go and forget about him..
Ok...I know the pain that i break with you.
By the way..are u just think u the one just pain?!
Sorry..I pain too~...Even is my decision..
Sometimes..i keep think about the suicide way...Ya,i suicide before..
But..this time..i didn't feel to make all the things..
So..i not choose suicide,i choose to cut my hand..
ya...is was so many scar on my hand,AS YOU SEE..
Hmm..my friend asking me about my scar..it is pain..
But i just can say..it was not pain at all..But..The most pain,was inside my heart...I keep saying to myself.."THIS PAIN WILL DISAPPEAR"
But..It Is True??? I still Can Feel It...
Should i choose the silent for my world..Not..i choose to happy...
But..i still faking it..
Ya...Fake Smile,Fake Laugh,Fake Joke..All was a fake...
你放弃了我。。。我终于自由了。。
不过，少了你的关怀，真的有点不自在。。
也许，我爱上了一不该爱上的人。。
朋友问我：“为什么你一直笑”。。
我能回答的只有：“因为，我很开心啊”
这就是我的风格。。请不要踏入我的世界来改变它。。
因为，我会恨你。。
我。。。我真的爱上了一个不该爱上的人吗？??
我现在能做的只是一个很普通的“微笑”
就算想流泪。。我也坚持的微笑，那是你教我的。。你还记得吗？？？
以前的你，每次都微笑。。
可是，现在的你却是如此的冷淡。。
你不是我认识的人了。。
我们还是朋友吗？？这句话，是你经常问我的。。
我的答案是：“我们不再是朋友了，我们是最收悉的陌生人”
一样的道理。。你放弃了我，我放弃了你。。
就算以后再见到你，我也会当做不认识你。。
因为你是，我爱的最深的男生，也是我伤到最深的男生。。
但，请你记住了。。。我和你都受到伤害了。。
所以，流泪的不只有你。。我也流泪了。。
虽然，大家告诉我。。你让感动的话，都是假的。。
但。。我还是相信了。。我好笨。。
因为。。就只有一个原因
“我爱上你这个骗子了”